sudden realisations

I think the turning point in general happiness came a couple of weeks ago, the day I realised that cie skating, while really fun and a wonderful sport, was too expensive for me to continue. I now have no purposes outside of shcool and I feel quite lost without somethng to hold me down. I've run out of money as my employer seems to have laid me off without further notice, which means I am now at a loss and everything I was planning has fallen apart. Thank you so much, employers, for not realising that when somebody says they are very ill, they often mean it. I would love to work for you again but first let me wallow in the fact you have somewhat ruined my dreams. I now have ice skates which cost me £100 and I cannot afford to use them. They just sit in my room and never move because I know they will just go back onto that shelf after about five minutes. This is a horrible feeling. But never mind... So long as you know what you're doing, everything's okay, right? Right?